Ambition #5

God damn guys!

It’s been 8 months, wot!

If you follow my other site (or any of my other social media), you’ll know I’ve been busy out in the world of London, building myself a brand, building myself a business and really trying to change people’s lives as much as I can.

Soo much has happened in the past 8 months. I’m a self employed personal trainer, nutritional advisor and lifestyle motivator & also I’m so so close to graduating from my Sports Massage diploma🙈.

If you’re interested in anything I’ve been doing/do have a look at my website, Instagram or Facebook and you’ll be quickly caught up.

Rather than reviewing what’s happened, I thought I’d take a moment this morning to outline my aims going forward. As you’ll know by now, I’m an ambitious individual with a lot of plans for the following year.

1) Successfully pass all my massage exams and start practicing from home/in the gym before Christmas. I’ll then plan on spending the following year setting up a separate practice elsewhere.

2) Be selling specialised plans online in combination with online fitness coaching! Currently I’m an online coach and sell specialised plans to individuals I meet in the gym. I’d like to take this further and start helping more people further and wider.

3) Educate the public more on nutrition. I’ve said it over and over. Nutrition is made out to be so much more complex than it actually is! I want to spread this simplicity without causing any further confusion!

4) Make plans to travel. In the next 10 years, I’d really like to travel alone. It’s a big one as I’m in no position financially, mentally or phsyically, but it’s something to aspire to!

5) Compete in more OCR events and invest in proper CrossFit training. At the moment, the training I do is very much self-taught and coached by the PT’s and gym membership around me, but I would love to be able to invest in a true professional.

What are your plans for the near future?

Enjoy a wonderful weekend x



Ambition #4


And it’s back, the fourth update of my goal setting/ what I want to complete this year. I’ll admit I don’t think much has changed since last month. But so far the posts have been spread monthly, so here we are! Check out the last one here.

I’m now 5 weeks into my Sports Massage Diploma, and boy that’s scary! It’s crazy how much I’ve learnt over the past 11 and a half weeks since I first took part in a massage introduction, but also how new and inexperienced I feel. It’s so bare! I’m doing well theoretically, my A&P paper is due on the 2nd December so I have just under two weeks. But my practical is getting nowhere, I really need to knuckle down with that!


This week I filled out the applications and paperwork for my PT course, I’m just waiting for the funding adviser to make a decision as to whether I’ll be funded or not! It’s all so exciting and I can’t wait to get properly stuck in!

I’ll be honest I’ve been CRAP with my eating for the past month, I haven’t gained any fat but I just haven’t been consistent. I guess there’s no better time for bulking season, aha! Muscle gain though, THAT HAS BEEN PHENOMENAL!  Check out the below picture, before Oct 1st, after Nov 1st!!!


Learning french has become non existent. Let’s not get too into that one.

Swimming is going really well too, I aim to up the consistency, but so far so good. I’ve really noticed the difference in my core strength from it too.

Completed and past my pool responders qualification last week. Surprisingly really enjoyed the two day course too.

Gym’s been going really well. Curently on a bit of a weird split with 3 back (pull) days, 1 chest (push) day and 1 legs day with 1 day left for cardio, abs and arms! I have a month until the end of my ’10 pull up challenge’. I’m about half way will a narrow grip, I think that’s my only hope at this stage, I really do struggle with the full wide grip. Wish me luck!

I started my Christmas shopping, I’m a massive Christmas lover so that’s all in FULL swing. Check out the cute giant bauble at Wembley Designer Outlet!


I’m travelling home after work today to spend two days with my mum and dad. Going to see Romeo and Juliet by the English National Ballet tomorrow too, and boy am I excited!!!

It’s always crazy when I write these posts, how much I realise that I’ve achieved in the month.



P.s I the first snapchat filter photo makes me want glasses and freckles for days😍

Self Love

Yesterday I wrote and posted a new post on my fitness blog. At first I was stuck over which page I wanted to post it on as its very personal but also speaks a lot towards my fitness journey.

Today I’ve decided I also want to share it here with you guys. So please, if you have a few minutes.

Check it out here.





Ambition #3

Conveniently, a month since my last ambition post and I’m back with an update. Maybe I’ll make this a monthly thing, idek!

Last weekend I completed week 3 of my sports massage course. I’m feeling more confident. I need to up my practical hours, I’ve got 30 hours to complete by January, I’m currently on 2, but now I have my own massage bed I hope this will become a habit for me, just need to find people to practice on, aha.

I’ve finally managed to persuade my manager to  hurry up and enrol me for my PT – any day now!

I’m eating intuitively but counting my carbs and protein. I tried to track my macros, but it just didn’t work getting free food at work, I just couldn’t guarantee what was in what. I was going to go back to intermittent fasting, but I realised I forced myself to eat more than I usually would because I was eating in a smaller time frame. I also consumed a lot more sugary drinks when I was fasting. So far, it’s going well.

My french lessons are still on hold, last time I said that I would try to get back on them on my commutes. It just hasn’t happened because I guess an update made the app not work without internet, and obviously I don’t have internet underground.

I’ve been swimming half a mile twice a week. Yesterday, I was so motivated and set myself the challenge to swim a mile after I’d cleaned the pool. Safe to say it didn’t happen. After an hour of cleaning the pool and 20 minutes swimming just over an hour I’d had enough and I just had to get out.

Probation at work is OVER! PT on its way and Life Guard training booked for the middle of November. Let’s PARTY!

I’ve decided to stop looking for fitness instructor positions for a while. I’m really into my training at the moment. Currently training 2 hours 6 X a week, plus regular swimming and the occasional climbing session. I’m also walking more, getting off of the tube 1 or 2 stops earlier and walking to and from the gym.

I’ve continued a deep stretching session once a week, I usually take an hour out of my day at work to complete this. I am interested in learning Yoga too so I’m thinking I might slowly introduce a little of that into this too.

This months been a bit of a flop. It’s slow progress. A lot of theory work and studying, but I’ll get there. I’ll be back with a new update soon (probably in about a month)!



P.s the featured image for this post is me from a styling shoot my sister did last year for uni. Hoping to encourage her to do more this year (technically more experience for her and more photos for me 😉☺️)

How’s it going?

It’s been a good amount of time since I posted on this blog, but this morning I’ve really been thinking about my fitness journey, read my progress here, and why I’ve been struggling so hard to shed the fat.

I’ve always had the saying that if it’s not happening, then you don’t want it enough. I truly think this is the problem with me trying to lose some of my body fat.

It’s not that I don’t want to lose fat, because I do. I wouldn’t be writing this post if I didn’t. I just think that I am so happy with how I am that making the changes I need to, in order to lose the last bit of fat is somewhere in the distance.

Im 5’2″, I currently weight 62kg with 14.4kg of body fat. If you’re a normal person reading this blog, then that will mean nothing to you, so here’s a picture…


Before anybody gets the wrong impression, I’m not at all saying I in any way need to lose weight for any purpose other than my fitness aspirations. I’m not saying I’m fat, I am well aware that I am of a healthy size for my height and weight, I’m just more interested in reaching my fitness goals in gaining more shape and definition in my muscles.

You might not see my problem, but it’s simple. As much as my ‘BMI’ says I’m overweight, I have a healthy 23% body fat percentage, and I personally feel I look good. The only push to shed a couple of kilo’s of body fat is more muscular definition – I SO SO badly want my abs to show. But I also, REALLY REALLY enjoy food.

So really, its a matter of food.

I eat pretty good at around 1500 calories a day, despite what society tells you, I promise (with the help of my nutritionist qualification), this is a healthy amount for my activity levels. I have around 120g of protein a day, helping to achieve optimum muscle growth and I keep fats to a minimum at around 20% of my diet. Carbs are taken through vegetables, fruit and wholemeal sources. I go to the gym for 2 hours a day between 5/6 days a week. I do my cardio, aim for 20,000 steps a day and always get my 60 active minutes a day.  So really, the only ‘healthy’ way I can shift the last few pounds is by cutting a few more calories, and to be totally honest with you, I don’t know if I’m ready to do this.

Over the next couple of weeks, I’m going to spend some time figuring out what’s more important. When I’m in the gym and at work (in a gym), I have so much motivation to lose those few extra kilos of body fat. But when meal times come around, I find myself asking myself why?

Stay tuned for an update.



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Ambition #2

4 weeks later and as promised, I’m back with an update (when am I not?).

Last weekend I completed my sports massage introduction course and this weekend I begin my official level 5 sports massage diploma. I can’t believe just how much I enjoy it all. Yes, I’m totally in over my head with the theory, but it’s so fun! So that’s good right?

I’ve got my work cut out. But also it’s forcing me to use my time much more wisely. The next few months look like endless applying for placements trying to get my student hours in, whilst working a full time job, training at the gym and studying for my L3 PT. I’ve also just began training my very of client which is hella exciting.

I’ve always been that person that wants to do everything. I have so, so, so much more I want to do, but I need to remind myself to slow down, everything happens in its time.

Most days, I’m working 4am-9pm non-stop, although it’s draining at the time, I can’t wait to get into bed by the end. Four weeks on, and I’ve never felt so mentally energised. I’m hoping I’m not about to break, aha! But I’m just about getting 6 and a half hours sleep a night, making sure I get 8 hours at least 2 nights a week around my days off. I’m eating better than I ever have before, knowing I really need to fuel my body to keep going. I’ve met some incredible people, with the same priorities and visions! And I’m learning so many new things! It’s great and I’m loving it.

As I sit here drinking my 1 coffee for the day, I’m so excited for the day ahead. I’ll give you another update of Sports Massage a couple of weeks in.

I’m sad to say that actually, my French lessons are a little on hold. I used to fit in around an hour a day whilst travelling to and from work, but I’ve had so many books to read/ studying to do on my commutes I’ve barely had a chance to fit in my 20 minutes practise a day. My plan is to dedicate some time to do that from now on, I’ll let you know.

I was actually doing really well with swimming, I was swimming over half a mile 5 days a week at work. However, I was ill a few weeks back, and had to take 3 weeks off prevent passing the infection on. I hated myself a tiny bit as it slowed my progress, but I got into the pool again on Thursday and it felt brilliant. I’ll be back on my training to swimming mile in no time! I know a mile isn’t anything special but I get bored easily in the pool. I think it’s because I swim in such a quiet and spa like pool, there are no distractions to keep me busy. I hope to get to the point where swimming a mile on a weekly basis is just a habit!

I looked for Netball teams in the area, but I just don’t have the money or time to commit to one time every week.

My probation period at work ends next week, so I should be beginning my PT and Life Guard training from then. I’ve never been more excited to study something more than I am to study PT.

I’ve been applying for lots of different fitness instructor positions, but it’s so difficult as they either want more hours than I can give, or they don’t offer enough to warrant me taking the position on. I’m hoping to start some fitness classes at work, for staff. I won’t get paid any extra, but it’ll be valuable experience for when I do.

New Interests:

I tried vegetarianism last week, that didn’t go well. I wasn’t born to avoid eating chicken😂.

Last week I went to a stretch class for the first time since I stopped dancing. Although I was amazed at the amount of flexibility I’ve retained. It made me want to get back into it properly. I’ve booked the class for this week but have also set myself the task to get back into practising yoga. As I can’t afford to attend actual classes, I’ll be practising at home and occasionally in the gym. I am hoping that next year I will be able to invest some more time and money into actual classes. I think it’s something I’d really enjoy!

I think that’s it for my update, it seems like a lot, but I don’t really feel like I’ve achieved that much. I’ll be back with a new update soon!




Ever feel like you’re constantly being let down by the people you have the most faith in.

Ever find you’re constantly making excuses for those who keep messing up.

Isn’t it funny how we have so much power in choosing our friendships, and yet we constantly go back to those who continuously walk all over us for the sake of not being alone?

Sometimes, I actually wish we could go back to the days in school when it was so easy to find out what somebody thought about you. It’s not funny, but I can’t help but laugh.

When I was at school me and my girls constantly fell out, because we were too immature to deal with the fact that sometimes people do things unintentionally that annoy us. There was also the phase where we believed that somebody was two faced, just because they didn’t agree with all your opinions.

And now it’s just as bad, because the roles have reversed.

Because now, we’re all too afraid to say what we think, not even just in fear of upsetting the apple cart, but instead because it’s become socially unacceptable to have an opinion, or even just have differences.

As a society we’re telling people its okay to be different, and that its good to have your own opinion, to speak your mind.

But we’re doing nothing to implement this.

Just a thought for your day.